Wednesday, October 09, 2002

I think I'm in love with a few different people. I'm so confused.
I've been seeing my secret crush a lot lately. Our families are together a lot. I really wish I could tell him that I liked him. I feel so stupid NOT telling him..

Saturday, October 05, 2002

things didn't really go as well as I wanted with Cassie, She sort of blew up and it was pointless to even talk to her about it. god, I wish I was a lesbian or some shit. That would be wayyyy easier then she woudl atleast get it.

Thursday, October 03, 2002

Lately, cassie has been talking about me behind my back. I don't care, really...I j ust get mad when poeple talk behind each other's backs. It's like.. stop being jealous. It's really sad. She is in love with Troy and I guess she thinks that he and I are doing something, but it's not like that, We're just friends. I feel bad for her too. This is so dumb she's so fake to me I get really angry I don't care, I guess. Here's what I want to say:
I understand that you believe I like Troy? Well... I want you tk now that I don't like him, atleast not int hat way. I am going to try and explain our friendship to you, but I guess what you think is what you think.. Ic a'nt change it. I really think that me and you have some tension sometimes because people telling you've said some things about me. I'm not saying I just want you know that I don't care and I don't want things to change just because of Troy. I'm not any way into him and he is just a really good friend. I don't think he's cute, or hot. It's a neutral feeling. Just a friendship I don't undersand why you can't see that. It's not a crush, or a relationship. Anyway, I'd like to kepe our frienship and hopefully you would too, but if you're going act ghow you've been acting. It's pointless...


Well, that's it. We'll see how things go. I'm going to try and talk to her tomorrow.