I have a lot of things I need to get out... and I have no one to let them out to. I don't know what I am going to do. I don't know where I'm going, or where I am... I hope to get a job very soon. I applied somewhere today, where Trae works.
there are/were so many things in my life that i knew I couldnt live without, and I have none of them now. I am constantly living in this dream world where everything was how it was when I was with Dennis and everything was how it was when I lived in Half Moon Bay. I miss my father, I wont lie... I want to be around him, really bad. Why cant I just have my parents close to me? I know it sounds like... childish, and I really should grow up, but I screwed up. I made a mistake. I've made a hell of a lot of them, I guess I just want my life back. Really badly. I'm going to lay in bed.