another morning awake at six am. car alarms, busy street and sirens. sirens of all sorts. having a cigarette in the temporary kitchen. i'm in hell.
unfortunately i'm missing the one person i ever truly loved. it hurts deppe in my being to think of him. and i wish i would stop.

iwish i lived with family who loved me. but i can't find unconditional love.
no where.

a decision tos tay with a friend cross county in hopes of my dreams for safety working out.
she reachers for her heart suddenly realizes in slow thoughts that her chest is fill with tatered and torn music notes.
all methodically leading toward a path that is no longer accessible.
what's she to do? sit and wonder if her life is a joke?

she's got nothing to live for and with one deep slice all of her problems could be over.

alluding freedom and heaven.
she'd be free and forever in the darkness of death...forever.

she doesn't have the heart to do so though.

so she must go on living the horror that is her life for the moment.

safety awaits you, young girl. safety in a friend who is unconditional and loving.

trae if you read this. i love you, and you are my best friend in the world. and i thank you and your father so much for any help that you give me. and i thank you for giving me the option of coming out there.

its a new world for me. and i can't wait to get there.