I dont really know whats going on with me. I've been uber depressed sometimes. and wayyyyy happy sometimes. I'm sort of confused on what I'm doing, I know what I want and what I should be up to. but I want to do the complete opposite. I want to save money and run. that would be my ideal. and I am sooo willing to do that. but I need to pay for my car. pay my insurance. and things of the such, That is only for two months so I suppose that I'll make it and just save after that. Save what I can out of my next 2 checks. I suppose I'm just tired and I need to rest. but, I just feel so stressed out.. with the entire.. "love" situation. with my Dustin situation. I dont even know how I'm feeling. He says to get my shit in order and him too and then we can talk about a relationship among other things. and I suppose he is right, but what if he changes his mind?! what if in Hawaii he meets some other girl who completely changes his life?