Hm. things are odd for me right now. I'm just not very good. I love him. even though I said I dont. I just wanted to try and convince myself that I didn't. but I do. I dont know what I'm saying. I guess when you fall for someone.. even when they are 3000 miles away, and dont love you back and guarantee that they wont fall for you. you still do. I dont know. I like Dustin very much, but I'm pushing for him to like me. I wasn't talking about Dustin in the beginning of this entry. Just so you know. and as much as I like Dustin. I dont want to hurt him. I like him a lot though. and I'm hoping that he likes me that much. I dont want my heart to be broken again. because its already aching. man. Keith hurt me. GOD. I need to get over that shit, it wasnt' even real I was just a skank to him and such. I'm gonna go. I dont want to talk anymore.