So yeah, me and Dustin hung out for a few days. and of course I fell in love with him. Typical of me. Very typical of me. Anyway, I always fall for the boys who are leaving... or who can't be with me. Or who live far away. This is by far my curse. mainly because I actually do love these people. I always love people, and I want them to love me. but it never happens. I am absolutely in love with Dustin, but I guess it is because in his little way he made me feel like no one else ever had before. He made me feel special. and Sweet and innocent. He made me yearn for affection and love. It wasn't like with Keith, where he basically pushed me away and then would play with my heart. Dustin actually made me smile, and was sweet to me. and such. He held me while I slept for 2 nights. He held me all day while we were in the hotel room. These last few days have been the most amazing days I've ever had in my life. and I wouldn't trade them for anything. I really am not liking knowing that he is leaving on Wednesday. but I suppose I have to deal with it. I have to let him leave. and write him all the time. and such.
God. My heart is really empty right now, I gave him all I could. You dont understand, the other night, I held him and he cried and told me everything that was worrying him, and everything that was depressing him. Everything that he was feeling. I got to know him, I loved that he talked to me for ho, urs. I loved that he let his guard down completely. I felt so special.
He told me about everything, I really got to know him well that night. <3.>
Jeez. Alright. Good-day. Til later.