okay, so.
OCTOBER 12!!!
hmmm, alright. so.. I was telling about the recent developments of my life, but really.. I'm not sure what's new and what's not.
Or what is even worth telling.
I'm being torn between two guys.
but really, I know who I want and what I want. but.. I just can't wait any longer. and the other is just as good.
I feel so bad for hurting nick.
I dont want to hurt him.
I'd love to change my mind and love him to death.
is it bad that I do? hmm, I dunno. anyway, So school starts in a few weeks and I know it's gonnabe hectic. and I'm so not up for it. the hecticness not the school stuff.
i'm so down for the school stuffs. anyway. My birthday is coming up, I'm going to be 19, that's exciting don't you think? I think so. yes yes yes. <3
and let's see.
went to the new years eve thing with syd, adam and adolfo
it was funtimes.
we went to in and out afterwards and it was fun, I spit tea on adam. I felt bad, but it was so funny i'm laughing right now thinking about it. haha. hmmm. I'm not really sure what else to write about.
oh, I'm giving david one week from day at 7:20 pm to decide what he wants, and to either be with me, or just be friends.
I told him, so that's that.
I made a cd, of all the songs I sing to him. Long distance sucks, and It's relaly fucking hard, but I think I'm making the best of things. He's going to make his mother feel bad for yelling at him about salad. Or something.
Sally still doesn't know about me. but I figure that's probably best. I'm scared she'd not be his friend if she knew he and I were talking. and he needs her, somewhat.
She's like.. his ground, but yeah.
so last night david and I had a really amazing night.
we didn't fight. and we talked about a lot of things that needed to be talked about.
and sorted somethings out.
I love being honest with him, and I love feeling so close.
we fell asleep together, on the phone. and woke up at the same time.. and then got off the phone and went to bed. It was so nice sleeping with him. I haven't slept so good in a long long time. but yeah, anyway.
RECENT STORIES:
my sister is MIA, off running drug whoreness.
MY GRAMMA lost her job.
WE ARENT talking to any of them.
I LOVE DAVID HALEY.
Adolfo is going to Las Vegas this weekend and I'm going to miss him, like crazy.
but yeah, he needs this vacation thing.. i'm scared he's going to get stressed out. His boss kind of puts a lot on him for how busy he is.
I dunno, not my place to say that. I love adolfo, anyhow.
I watched Garden State last night. and it made me want to fall in love.
and oh yeah, it's fucking amazing.
Okay.
Recent Mixtape I made:
1. Azure Ray : November
2. Berlin : Take my breath away
3. Michelle Branch : Til I get over you
4. Michelle Branch : Goodbye to you
5. No Doubt : Running
6. Zero 7 : In the waiting line
7. Frou frou : Let go
8. Bonnie Somerville : winding road
9. Cary Brothers : blue eyes
10. Sade : By your side
11. Sarah Mclauchlin : Angel
12. Vanessa Carlton : White Houses
13. Vanessa Carlton : Who's to say
THATS IT. woot.
Okay. So, I think I'm going to go call David.
and maybe read in a bit.
I love you. <3
xo