the rock inside the fishtank is turning black, and off in the distance I can faintly hear Peter Griffins laugh... its remote, but normal for me to block everything else out.

i close my eyes and I see the former version of myself, smiling and looking into your eyes.
hopelessly telling you "i love you" and the 'i love you's seem to pour from both of us.
unending melting of our hearts together...

suddenly those melty insides turn cold again, i realize it is the end of our bought together..
i love you, "at times". what does that mean?


i wonder if you ever really did love me... although, I realize you did at times. but was I just a convenience for you?

Did you truly see me as the love you wanted forever... your soulmate as you said.

I guess I can't let love define who I am, and youre right I've never been hurt before. never like this


but as is with all heart break you live and learn... and love again(or learn to stop loving, in my case)