Sydney, I'm almost postive that you won't read this, but I feel like I want to say it either way.
I agree that you've tried to be here for me... and you've been nothing but the greatest. but when you do that. You always make me feel as though I'm not good enough to be equal to you. I know i'm not good enough for you. that's ok. being a slut isn't too bad.
I feel like every time we started getting back to us... things just kept getting bad. and it was all my fault.Things just kept falling apart. Either that or... I'm a fuck up. First it was Milo coming here.. then we had a slight falling out when the Casey thing happened (whether it was too far read into or not), then when my father kicked me out. It just seems like possibly we're never going to understand eachother ever again. i know it's hard to understand me. i'm an onion. so many white stinky layers.
I guess maybe you've always thought yourself better than everyone else.. I just never saw it. I'm sure you are. but really.. next time, a new friend, another person. won't be as worthless as me.

i really don'tw ish you luck, because i'm cold and mean.
in a way, i'm glad things didn't work out in our friendship because it just seemed like... you were too awesome for me.
hopefully i'll think of someone other than myself next time. and i'm not sure how i snubbed you. i was more than grateful for you "caring" for me. what could i do? sit there and bother you while you giggled about milo writing you love letters? no. all i could do is worry about what i'm doing with my life. and cry. and feel sorry for myself like i always do. because i like attention. i felt the sincerity in your words, and actions. i wasn't about to let it all out to you. i needed someone who could be as fake and awful as me. really i did...