So lately I've been really not doing well.
The falling out with Sydney, realizing I have no real close friends, it's terrible.
If ound myself not believing in myself, and really taking nothing it at all.
I noticed I don't want to do what I'm doing I want to have more time for me, more time to love myself, and get to know others.
I've really been careless with my feelings and actions, I need to be more self aware, more kind, really.
On the other hand, things are going so terribly right now that I don't really feel like taking part in a new friendship, or getting to know old friends.
I don't know, I'm pretty upset, and I'm considering dropping out of school. There are really some things I can't handle right now.
I've had no time to relax or just rest. I've been up and up and up and up consecutive hours of doing, doing, doing.
I need to take some time off and relax. Maybe get away from school, friends, get rid of my social life, I don't need it, I know!
Finish my book, I was going pretty well and then I just started going out and such. I need to take care of the things and people that Ic are about rather than go out and get fucked up because Ic an't control my life.
I need to start now.