When will I wake up from this horrible nightmare? When will I open my eyes and see truth instead of harsh lies. When will I see my knight here to save me?
My dream come true would be being a princess, I want to be asked to be someone's princess. Yes, possession of someone. I've never been a belonging of someone's I'm always needy and too loving and I get pushed away, or I push. I get too uncomforable? I don't know. Perhaps, I need too much and one person can't offer what I need.
Honestly, I can't stand being so needy, and Ic an't stand pushing people away when they try to be helpful and try to be there for me. I get this ugly sense of hate when someone is there for me.
I almost feel bitter, like no one actually cares about me, I don't understand, really. Probably self-hate just blossoming into hatred for others.
Bleh