ugh, im sick. this sucks!!!! who got me sick you may ask?????????????? that fucker will remain nameless! oh well, hah it was worth it. lol well i miss you all very much. heres to you
Syd: i love you so much! i've been missing you immensely. i feel so lost with out you in my life. i've tried to make up for lost time. by writing you letters all the time. but the only problem is that i dont know where i can mail things..so i guess i'll just email and such. i miss you so much. i miss you and school and life. and everything about all of my life around you. you know what i mean? that doesn't really make sense..i guess im just saying i miss every aspect of my life that had to do with you.. and considering you were just a boutmy everything in hmb thats a lot! when i think about what an amazing person i left behind. such and amazing friend (and lover lol) i never really got to write you a letter about how much i care for you. or how many emotions you make me feel. or how you make me feel in general. but i guess nows my chance? alsallsdlfkakkasdkajsldkjasoiwerialskjdfgalks.m,dnvv,amsnclk,x,,,cvz,xmcnvzcnxvkjshffa;ofKJSDFFK. thats the amount of emotion i feel for you. i love you sooooooooo much! and you are one of the BEST friends i've ever had. and i hope that we continue to be friends forever...or atleast as long as we can. you dont know, and i dotn think you'll ever know the severity of how much i need you. im inclined to say that becaue it scares me, but i believe that i do. your friendship and well being mean more to me than anyone's ever has. your well being means more to me than my own. you are amazing, sydney tan. you make my star shine bright. while at the same time keeping yours brighter! i've become teary in just saying these things to you. but you are my everything, atleast al i need. and i dont have you here with me. we aren't together to help one another get through things. and its hard for me to accept. but i guess im going to have to deal with it. it really really sucks though. because i NEED you here. and you aren't. nor am i, there. but i guess this is one of those thingis you have to let run its course. i think we were meant to be friends for along time and since we are so far apart we have to MAKE it work. its like a relationship (well its a sort of relationship) we have to keep in touch and keep communication lines visable. make sure you keep in touch with me and make sure you and i never stop talking!!!! MAKE SURE! and dont let anyone else take my place. (unless its gracie! lol) she can have my place. hehe, well i guess i need to stop being so sappy and tell you that i miss you and love you and i need you. and i hope that i see you as soon as possible because with out you my life doesn't feel right. infact i feel a little off thinking you aren't here...or anywhere around..in fact your in HAWAII! achk. although i am in texas and not at home..ugh i better go its getting late.. i wanna go lay down..lol i love you lots!! talk to you when i can. bye bye