sometimes I wonder what happened... I mean, there was a time when I was really happy and I really enjoyed life.
but I feel like I lost my friends.
I don't think it's because I did something wrong... I think they were just ashamed of me.
which is heart shattering
I put myself in this picture of success
i don't fit, not one little bit
I want an enjoyable time
I want to go away with someone for the weekend and just laugh.
I honestly just want happiness, and where I am, I'll never get it.
I never felt closer to someone than I did with Sydney, but apparently I was unappreciative of her.

It seems like everyone I know is psychotic. Or maybe I have the problem.
I don't know if anyone has noticed but, the world hates me. I always lose my friends, and without a care I'm left alone
It's a miserable existance.