Rejection!!
Lets start from the beginning. I met this AMAZING guy, named Gary. He was super cute and he was sweet and funny. He was seriously PERFECT. Played the guitar, wrote me songs, told me I was beautiful. I was truly happy. I thought that I had found Mr. Perfect, Mr. Wonderful. That was a NEGATIVE ghost rider. I couldn’t have been more wrong. Anyway, I chilled with him a couple times, before we started to talk. Chilling was always cool, we’d just hang, He’d play, or we’d talk. Or whatever. Yea. So anyway…we started to fool around and shit. Things got a little weird after that. He would always make sexual comments and shit. I would be sucking his dick and he’d just sit there. I mean, he enjoyed it, but it was way too weird knowing that I was being used. Kind of hurt. I guess I just thought that he would like me more. I guess I expected too much. Who knows? I will NEVER know. It just HURT a lot to know that he would and COULD just reject me like that. Hurts a lot to tell you the truth. Weird. I’ve never felt so much pain at once then completely lost it. I completely stopped having any feelings for him whatsoever. It was like he never existed…like he did like me and I left him. But I couldn’t have been more wrong he liked me, yes. Though he didn’t show it he liked me. He just wanted sex to tell you the truth. He wanted a piece of ass that was always around. That was always there for him. That was going to be there forever. But little did he know that I would leave him the second he treated me wrong. He treated me like I didn’t matter. He stopped talking to me randomly. Like he never felt for me at all. He said he didn’t want to get hurt but he hurt me. My way of showing affection is telling people how much they mean to me. I guess that was bad for him. I guess he didn’t want that. I’m really not sure. Yea, you left me, and you always try to come back. But I wont take you, you can’t have. You don’t own me. You own nothing. You are nothing. You aren’t what I want. Nor what I ever wanted. I’m too good for you...weird? NO!!?! you don’t deserve someone as special as me. Look at my life and look at yours I’m too happy for you. I’m sorry if you think its better to be an asshole and never love. But I *am*!!! I could and will love someone one day. You didn’t break me. You were nothing…never to be anything. You don’t deserve what you took from me. Although you didn’t take my virginity I’m sure you would have. You would take it and hurt. You would want me to feel pain. A pain that could NEVER subside. Since someone already took that you could never have made me feel that pain. You aren’t capable of that. You aren’t capable of much…